Hi, I’m Rachael and this is my story:
Growing up, I struggled with depression and insecurity. I didn’t feel loved or accepted. I never felt like I was good enough, pretty enough or smart enough. I never fit in or felt like I belonged. I was an outsider. Outcast. Isolated. I was living in darkness with no hope for the future.
I longed for love and acceptance from other people. I made poor dating decisions and I was in a verbally abusive relationship because I didn’t know who I was. I didn’t know my worth and just how loved, and accepted I was. I didn’t understand what the purpose of life was or why I was here. I couldn’t see a future for myself. I didn’t think that I would live to see the age of 25. I didn’t think that I would ever get married or that anyone would ever want me because of the things that I had done and that were done to me. I felt ruined and unwanted. At times, I just wanted to die. But God had other plans for me.
In November 2011, I had a conversation with a man that changed the course of my life forever. This man shared with me what God had done in his life and then he asked me if I had a relationship with Jesus. I was not aware that I could have a relationship with Jesus or that He wanted a relationship with me. I always felt far away from God.
I was raised Catholic so I knew of Jesus, but I didn’t know Jesus intimately. I didn’t understand the significance of His death and resurrection on the cross, and that it was love that compelled Jesus to sacrifice Himself for me. Romans 5:8 says that, “God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” I would not be alive today if it were not for the love of God. I would not be alive today if someone hadn’t told me about Jesus. This is the relationship that I was longing for my whole life. This is the love and the acceptance, and the relationship that I was made for.
Today, at the age of 30, my life has completely changed. I have hope. I have purpose. I am free. My life, my identity, my joy, my security; all that I am and all that I have is found in Jesus. A year after I gave my life to the Lord, the same man who told me about Jesus became my best friend. Then, on June 13, 2015, he became my husband.
God could have sent him into my life to tell me about Jesus and that would have been enough for me, but God has given me so much more. He wants to give you more.
Friend, you are so deeply loved. No matter who you are or what you’ve done, God loves you and He knows you. He loves you and He longs to connect with you. In Jeremiah 1:5, God says, “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart.”
God has good plans for your life because He’s a good Father and He created you for a purpose. You matter. Your life matters.
You are deeply loved by God. You are accepted. You are worthy. You are enough.
There is hope for you. You were made for a relationship with God. You were Made For More.
If you want a relationship with God, the bible says, “If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.” (Romans 10:9) Friend, pray this prayer aloud, in your own words and from your heart:
“Lord, I recognize that I am a sinner and I need you in my life.
I no longer want to live apart from you.
Please come into my life and help me to know you and to love you.
Help me to live the life you died to give me, in Jesus’ name, Amen.”
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